The thing about addictions and dealing with someone who has one, is one never quite knows what to believe or trust. Past experiences are always floating around in your head playing with your mind and making it hard to know what to believe and trust.
Not hearing from M, brought up worries I didn't want to remember.
Three weeks ago before knowing what was going on, but my intuition kicking into gear, I had not heard from M in a few days. She was not answering her cell or her texts, she had the weekend off so I could not reach her at work and despite saying she would stop by to visit, she had not.
It was a Monday night, I was getting ready to board a flight to head out of town for a week of work and had not heard for 3 days. My last phone call to my husband was asking him to reassure me that I did not have to be worrying that she was in a ditch somewhere and him telling me to give her one more day.
I was reaching for my phone to turn it off before take off, and it rings. It is her and she is so sorry, etc. Had left her phone somewhere. Why didn't I question more? Going out of town didn't want to deal with it? Didn't want deal with what I was thinking????
Would it of mattered at that point?
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